Does God Forgive Blasphemous Thoughts?

Scrupulosity Video Post

Jaimie Eckert

Published on Jun 30, 2024; Updated on Jul 4, 2024

One question we often hear almost daily in the scrupulosity recovery community: “Does God forgive blasphemous thoughts?” It’s one of the stickiest and most repetitive conversations, and if you’ve had this conversation with a loved one or a spiritual mentor, you know what I mean. Here’s how the conversation usually goes:

“Does God forgive blasphemous thoughts?”

“Yes. Because it was an intrusive thought, so you didn’t mean to have that thought, which means it’s not a sin since you didn’t choose it.”

“But what if I DID mean to have the thought? Will God forgive me?”

“Yes, don’t worry about if it feels like you meant it. Because your brain is doing wacky things and He sees the ‘real you.’”

“Okay, but I still feel super anxious. Would He still forgive me if I said it out loud?”

“Why, did you say it out loud?”

“I can’t remember. Maybe? I don’t know. My memory is tricking me.”

“Well, did you or didn’t you?”

“I DON’T KNOW!!! What if I DID?!”

“I’m pretty sure God isn’t holding that against you. Look at yourself in the mirror. You’re an anxious wreck. He knows that you’re not yourself right now and are liable to think and say things you don’t mean.”

“Ok, well I have to admit something to you. I feel like maybe I’ve been holding this back because I want you to think the best of me. But I have to confess. I think I did have a blasphemous thought against God, and then I felt really angry and rebellious and hard-hearted towards Him. And then THAT’S when I think I said it out loud and genuinely meant it.”

“Okay…”

“So can God forgive even that?”

“Well, it sounds like you’re really burned out and frustrated and maybe resentful at God. There are plenty of people in the Bible who came to God with their raw anger and bitterness. Have you talked to Him about all this?”

“I tried, but after that episode, I literally FELT God’s presence departing from me. I felt so dark and lost and awful. So I’m really worried now.”

“I don’t think feelings and sensations are very reliable for someone with an anxiety disorder.”

“Yes, but everything combined?? Don’t you see? I’m really in a bad spot right now! I need to know I can be forgiven!”

Religious Repetition

The purpose of this short post is not to delve into the arguments outlined above, but simply to show you the repetitive pattern of the discussion. You might have the most helpful and most knowledgeable spiritual mentor, but it doesn’t matter what he or she says. Your brain will keep coming up with another “yes, but…”

One of the members of our online recovery community recently commented that he “can’t accept any interpretation of the unpardonable sin.” No matter what anybody says to him, he lives under the conviction that he’s going to hell. His brain is so good at coming up with objections, it is like nothing can break through that false conviction.

This is the chronic doubt aspect of religious OCD. No matter how good the answers are, you always have another objection. It’s a game of ping pong, and you can never win against the OCD.

However, if there’s anything good about your chronic questions, at least they inform you of the fact that you’re dealing with something other than your conscience. 

Why do I say that? Because your conscience always leads to a forward-moving experience of repentance, forgiveness, growth, healing, and joy. Take a look (again) at this classic Bible passage about true and false guilt.

For even if I made you sorry with my letter, I do not regret it; though I did regret it. For I perceive that the same epistle made you sorry, though only for a while. Now I rejoice, not that you were made sorry, but that your sorrow led to repentance. For you were made sorry in a godly manner, that you might suffer loss from us in nothing. For godly sorrow produces repentance leading to salvation, not to be regretted; but the sorrow of the world produces death. For observe this very thing, that you sorrowed in a godly manner: What diligence it produced in you, what clearing of yourselves, what indignation, what fear, what vehement desire, what zeal, what vindication! In all things you proved yourselves to be clear in this matter. 

2 Corinthians 7:8-11

True conviction moves you. There is a process that takes you from point A to point B, and then you’re done. You close the file and mark it off your list, so to speak.

OCD and blasphemous thoughts: true conviction moves you

False guilt mires you in one place, stuck in the quicksand of repetitive thoughts. You never move in any direction except down in your own despondency.

So if you’ve been having blasphemous thoughts, and you can’t shake the feeling of guilt no matter how often you confess and seek God’s face, guess what? This is a fantastic clue that you’re dealing with false guilt. This isn’t how God works.

Does God Forgive the Blasphemous Thoughts of OCD?

The question as to whether God forgives blasphemous thoughts is a bit of a misnomer, because it assumes that you chose your blasphemous thoughts. Sin is a choice. Intrusive thoughts are not. Consider the following passage about sin:

“Let no one say when he is tempted, ‘I am tempted by God’; for God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does He Himself tempt anyone. But each one is tempted when he is drawn away by his own desires and enticed. Then, when desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, brings forth death.”

James 1:13-15

This passage utilizes the metaphor of fornication to illustrate the moment when “sin” comes into existence.

  1. First there is temptation. This involves desire and a forbidden pleasure which is “enticing” you (that is, arousing your innermost desires). Note that this is not yet considered sin; note also that Jesus Himself was tempted (see Matthew 4); and note that this doesn’t sound anything at all like our experience with blasphemous thoughts, which are most certainly unwanted!
  2. Secondly, there is the act which is delicately called “when desire has conceived.” This indicates that the actual step has been taken onto forbidden ground (i.e. the act of fornication, which is the only thing which can cause “conception.” Desire and lustful intent cannot biologically cause a child to be conceived, only the act itself.) This conception leads to the existence of sin in our lives.
  3. Thirdly, sin, when it is grown up in the life and allowed to flourish, leads to spiritual death and decay.

This three-step explanation of temptation, sin, and spiritual decay leaves us scratching our heads. Where in this list do we find the blasphemous thoughts of religious OCD? Certainly not in the temptation stage, for the person with religious OCD is horrified by the thoughts passing through his mind. There is nothing “desirable” or “enticing” about these thoughts! They are detestable and cause a great deal of anxiety and efforts to erase them from the mind.

Is there an “act” that can be considered sinful?

No!

It might feel like it. The mere presence of these unwanted blasphemous thoughts feels like we have generated them. But imagine the following two scenarios:

  1. A husband returns home from work to find his wife in bed with another man; they are having a consensual adulterous experience.
  2. A husband returns home from work to find his wife has been forced into bed with a burglar; he is raping her.

Apologies for the graphic depiction–but I just wanted to show you that in both cases, there’s THE PRESENCE of another man in his bed. Which is bad in either case. But the wife is only guilty in ONE of the two scenarios.

You can be innocent of sin even when there is the presence of something in your mind that doesn’t belong there.

But MY Blasphemous Thoughts Are Different

As we talk about whether God forgives blasphemous thoughts, I can already hear at least 50% of my readers groaning inwardly.

“But Jaimie, this is all fine and dandy for others. But MY blasphemous thoughts are different.”

Oh, really?

That’s what everybody thinks.

But just for your sake, let’s talk about some of the most common objections from people who really insist they ARE guilty.

“I think I meant to have that bad thought.”

Yes, the line between voluntary and involuntary thought becomes very blurry when you have a diagnosis like obsessive-compulsive disorder. That’s why they are called “intrusive” thoughts. They weasel their way into your brain and are usually in first-person voice.

What evidence do you have that you “meant” to have that thought?

Have you written it down and signed your name in agreement to it? Have you posted it on Facebook with pride for all your friends to see? Have you made it into a tattoo, a bumper sticker, a framed piece of wall art?

No?

I didn’t think so.

People with religious OCD are convinced that they originated their intrusive thoughts, but when it comes to socially demonstrating and claiming these thoughts, nobody will do it.

“I had a bad/angry/rebellious/hardhearted feeling when I had the blasphemous thought.”

Let me describe another phenomenon I have noticed in the scrupulosity recovery community.

Our obsessive minds might build up a false “imposter” image of God or the Holy Spirit. This “imposter” God is loud, intense, micromanaging, and full of unreasonable threats. We become convinced that God will bring down His hammer or send us to hell if we accidentally have that thought one more time…

We start living on a tightrope, desperate not to blow our last chance. It is a probation lived on eggshells, nervously avoiding triggers and trying hard to “be good.”

But inevitably, we have “the thought” again. In it comes, unbidden and unwanted, sending our brain into a panic. Faster than we can understand our own thought processes, what began as a blasphemous thought quickly turns to feelings of anger and hardheartedness.

If this has ever happened to you, you might have interpreted this to mean you actually meant to have the thought. You had a negative thought, and voila, here are negative feelings that seem to back it up.

But, may I offer a gentler and more reasonable suggestion?

Doesn’t it make sense that you’re not actually angry at God, but rather at OCD’s imposter God that has been set up in your mind? You’re angry and resentful about the fact that you can’t stop these thoughts and feel condemned for them. You’re hardhearted towards the endless struggle of feeling like you “have to” control the slippery thoughts. You’re dead tired of being beaten, day after day.

No, I don’t think it makes sense to automatically assume you “meant” the thought just because you had negative feelings. If you have felt like that, all it tells me is that you’ve been in the fight for a long time, and it might be time to lay down your sword.

letting go and ignoring blasphemous thoughts

“I had the blasphemous thought while I was engaging in REAL sin.”

As opposed to having intrusive thoughts on those rare moments when your halo is shiny and you haven’t sinned for at least 24 hours, yes, this can feel scarier.

But does it really matter WHEN you have a bad thought?

What is it about the scenario surrounding the intrusive thought that makes you believe you sourced it? Intrusive thoughts can come when you’re being good, when you’re being bad, even when you’re dreaming at night!

In these cases, we would do well to ask God for forgiveness for the sin we committed but ignoring the fact that there happened to be a blip on the mental health radar at the same moment. “Does God forgive blasphemous thoughts” is an unhelpful question because it assumes these thoughts are sinful.

“I don’t feel sorry after having the bad thought.”

I don’t know you specifically, but I can tell you the typical pattern that I see in hundreds of cases of scrupulosity. When the person first begins having unwanted blasphemous thoughts, there is strong initial reaction against them. She recoils in absolute disgust and works very hard to push the thoughts away or negate them. She might go to deliverance ministries, read and memorize Scripture, pray like crazy, and do everything humanly possible to expel the thoughts.

However, the more she tries to force the thought out (which, by the way, is a surefire way of making your intrusive thoughts worse), the worse she gets! She may sink into depression or spiral into a psychotic episode. Her life might be fraying around the edges as she tries to deal with the blasphemous thoughts, or it might be completely falling apart.

Finally, one day she wakes up and feels like all her dislike for the blasphemous thoughts has been shut off like a winterized water hose. She just doesn’t care. She doesn’t feel sorry. She doesn’t want to repent or work so hard anymore.

Then (predictably), she begins to panic about NOT having an intense response anymore.

This, my friends, does not signal the acceptance of the thought. In most of the cases I’ve seen, it signals the peak of spiritual, mental, and emotional burnout. If you find yourself in this place, you ought not berate yourself or try to muster up the same compulsive response you once had. You should be very, very gentle with yourself.

“I literally FELT God’s Spirit departing from me after having that terrible thought.”

Some people with scrupulosity get the heebie-jeebies in conjunction with their intrusive thoughts.

By “heebie-jeebies,” I mean feelings of intense discomfort and doom. Maybe feelings like a dark cloud. Or jitters down your spine. Or sleep paralysis. Or sweaty palms. Or rapid heart rate.

We then make spiritual interpretations to symptoms that should rightly be interpreted in a mental or physical framework.

I FELT God’s Spirit departing from me!

Don’t forget, there were a great many Bible characters who felt forsaken and abandoned by God. Think of Job. Think of John the Baptist, wasting away in prison. Think of David, anointed as the next king but hiding in the wilderness. I am sure that each of these individuals had strong feelings that were difficult to ignore. Nevertheless, they chose to walk by faith and not by sight.

Feelings are extremely difficult to ignore, but “strategic ignoring” is a skill that we must learn in our struggle with OCD.

Conclusion

I know it is very difficult to experience intrusive thoughts. Religious intrusive thoughts some of the most disturbing types out there. The stakes seem high and our power to control the intrusive thoughts is utterly ineffective. I can sympathize with anyone who has had intrusive thoughts because I have had them too.

Believe me when I tell you that it’s the wrong question to ask “does God forgive blasphemous thoughts?” This question presupposes that your intrusive thoughts were sinful. It is based on a paradigm in which you believe yourself to be culpable, that you meant to have the thoughts, and that you therefore are responsible before God to seek forgiveness.

If this article can free just one person from that paradigm, I would be so happy.

See, we don’t need to spend hours and hour in highly concentrated confession over our blasphemous thoughts. We don’t have to police our minds in human power, because when the Bible speaks about bringing every thought into captivity, it says that “the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty in God” (2 Corinthians 10:3-5).

God will fight for you. God will help you learn “strategic ignoring.” Maybe the fact that you’re reading this article about religious OCD is part of the way God’s power works to shift our attention, help us change strategies, and give us clearer methods.

As you press forward in OCD recovery, I encourage you to keep looking to Jesus to fight for you. Stop asking forgiveness for things that need a “mental health” label instead of a “sin” label.

And remember that even if you happen to be that one exception and might be making a mistake, remember that God loves you so much that He can redirect you and help you find the right path again.

Best wishes on the journey,

  • I ask that everyone who sees this pray for me . I think part of my problem is I can’t share what I am going through and I need people who have the same faith to pray for me . I have suffered for 6 month and half now to the point where I felt abandoned by god because he wouldn’t take away my pain . I have been having so much thoughts that are really bad and disgusting that I can’t stop them no matter what I do . I suffer . I can’t enjoy anything anymore because these thoughts are stuck to the point where I feel tired of doing the compulsions . My thoughts that I will deny Christ or my faith or that I will convert from Christianity to Islam which is something I don’t want to do but my thoughts keep pushing me to do so . I feel bad everyday because it starts from the moment I open my eyes and when I try to go to sleep it’s the hardest thing to do because I can’t fall asleep so much thoughts that won’t stop . I don’t want to abandon my faith . I am tired sometimes I hit myself out of anger and frustration . Sometimes I feel angry at god that he won’t take those thoughts away and I can’t stop them and if let these thoughts be I feel worse because having thoughts of letting go my faith is a terrible sin that I can’t live with . I lost so much peace that I really pray for one night to sleep without any thoughts . My health is bad . Tired all the time can’t enjoy even a movie . Can’t look at people without having sexual thoughts that I can’t control . It’s terrible I feel there is no hope . I keep thinking what if I have to live the rest of my life like that I can’t . I am tired just want one night of peace . Pray for me

    • Hi Kamal. I can certainly relate to many of your concerns! If it helps, please read my reply to Aubree and apply it to all that you, personally, are concerned about. It is just as relevant to you, my friend. I’m praying for you!

  • I feel so alone and I feel so disgusting how could I have thought those things and any type of movement can trigger it or thought and then I examine my heart and I find no good if those things come from me, sometimes it’s like it seems like it’s at the tip of
    Tongue, I feel so lost and alone I have know one to talk to about this I’m constantly scanning my thoughts and my heart, thinking those things are coming from me and I don’t want to think them, and then I think we’ll if there in my head what If I do oh I hate myself I hate this evil person inside I try to separate from me but it’s like that wicked person is stuck to me, even now as I write this crying my eyes out I’m at the same time trying to not think someone wrong or move the wrong way to trigger a thought, my evil heart I deserve the pits of hell for all of eternity, see just now I know that’s what I deserve but then I just think do I believe that, it’s a constant questioning and seeing how wicked my heart is and the thoughts that I think, please pray for me im so lost and have no one to talk to or relate to,

    • Hello brother.. dont worry..we all are in the same journey..but trust me Jesus hasn’t left you.. He is with you.. just keep looking at His love and let His love melt away your fears.. as a person who is foing through this.. i want you to know keep praying in the HOLYSPIRIT and let the Lord’s love engulf you and let His love take over.. and i am sure these bondages are going to be loosened in Lord Jesus name amen 🙏

  • Hi, thank you. All of these things I’m feeling. I recently got diagnosed with GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder) but I can’t help but think there something else missing. My heart feels hard, and I’m having apostate thoughts, blasphemous thoughts, any kind of ungodly thoughts. I don’t like the feeling of not having anxiety I don’t want to go to hell, but I’m scared. I have so much sadness and guilt. Sometimes I want to cry so bad but my mind just won’t let me. That’s a bad sign. And please don’t call me. God bless you and have a great day

    • Aubree,

      If you received Jesus, please know that these thoughts and emotions don’t define you. A Christian can experience any sort of awful, blasphemous thought, anywhere and anytime. It’s a tactic which Sin uses especially when you’re alone and even when you’re reading or listening to something really encouraging and God-inspired.

      If you received Christ, you were reborn but your physical body still has a spiritual parasite called Sin, and it has access to your mind and emotions. It has a persona, even has its own desires, but it is NOT you. It’s desire is to get you to doubt the limitless and amazing love that God, Jesus has for you.

      This was mind-blowing to me because I always thought the word “sin” was only a verb (like “sinning” or “to sin”), but it also describes a persona.

      We died to this thing called Sin when we were born again, but it still can access our mind and if we let it, can take control of us. We also have what’s called the “flesh”, which is the old train of thought, attitudes and ways of coping that we used to live by, before we were saved. The difference now is that we can choose to let Jesus take control and learn to let go of the thoughts and desires that Sin tries to influence and trick us into taking as our own, when they are not.

      Having our minds and attitudes renewed by His Spirit is what transforms our way of thinking, and where we can learn to recognize the lies that are offered to our minds and let go of them.

      It’s part of our spiritual growth which is His responsibility, not ours. We just let Him by trusting in His great love for us. The renewing of our minds, the growth we experience, is a deeper revelation of His love that passes all human understanding, and who we truly are as a child of God.

      These bad thoughts and emotions that Sin brings to our mind are designed to deceive and convince us to make us believe that they’re coming from us. Anything that has guilt, fear, condemnation and especially confusion do not come from the Father nor His Spirit in you. Jesus came to also drive away all the guilt, fear, anxiety and confusion.

      You can also feel like God’s a million miles away, but these are feelings and Sin can abuse them to lie to you. It’s gonna take time to learn and realize this, Aubree. It certainly has for me and I’ve experienced everything that you’ve detailed.

      Please realize that God, Jesus and His Spirit are crazy in love with you, and they think you are His perfect, wonderful daughter in Christ. He made you that way when you first believed. That’s what they think about you, and they’re never wrong.

      Happy 4th!

  • I might add to my comment that this is why it is impossible for the believer to commit the “unpardonable sin”, because they already chose to receive Jesus and His free gift of eternal life in Him. The believer is no longer dead in Adam, therefore cannot reject Jesus – it is impossible to do so.

  • I know God speaks in a whisper voice.
    As an individual who has been challenged by this problem, Fear of the unpardonable sin, I have felt at times that I have done that.

    Recently, prior to sleep I prayed, on my knees many of the names of Our Father.
    Within the next moment the word “mercy” was impressed on my brain. Following I was off to brush my teeth and the word “covenant” was impressed on my brain.

    I have pondered those words. They are so beautiful to me.

    In my best moments, I’m sure the Holy Spirit has given them to me.

    We need to lift up our concerns and receive love and faith from our Lord, Jesus.

    Thank you Jaimie for your continued efforts on this grouping of people. God Bless us!

    Jane

    • Hi Jane!

      What really, really cleared things up for me was realizing that the “unpardonable sin” is simply rejecting Jesus and His offer of Salvation, some people are insistent on rejecting Him and salvation, and don’t want anything to do with Him.

      The offer is always available and He’s always knocking on the door of people’s hearts, even at the last breath of life.

      For those who insist on rejecting the Gift and keeping the door of their heart closed to Jesus, remaining that way upon their death, that’s when they can’t go back because they’ve entered eternity in that state of being dead in Adam. It’s an identity issue, and they forever remain locked-in to that family tree.

      When a person opens the door of their heart to Jesus, they’re immediately taken out of the family tree of Adam, and placed into Jesus, literally reborn at the spirit level. His Spirit did all that for you the instant you believed in Him.

      I’m wagering that you’ve already accepted Jesus! It’s already done. You long ago decided to change your mind about who He is and what He did for you and wanted to do to you.

      He also promised to never leave you nor forsake you, and that no created thing will separate you from His love (and His life!). You are a created thing, right? Let that sink in and realize that His promises are irrevocable.

      • Yes, Ben I accepted Jesus’ gift years ago. I’m 65 years old.
        Thank you for your encouragement!!
        By the Grace of God I continue to mature.

  • Hi Jaimie great article but the final paragraph about making a mistake threw me a bit! Introduced doubt again.

  • I do suffer with scrupulosity and have done for many years, but the last 3-4 years since the ****demic I have adopted a new twist in my scrupulosity it’s what I describe as “contradictive Thoughts”. You see the last 3-4 years I believe we have seen and heard so many lies on Tv and social media that it’s very hard to believe anything you see and hear so I end up contradicting nearly everything and this has spilled over into my
    Christian thinking, for example when I watch or read topics and articles on Christianity I find myself criticizing or contradicting
    God’s word which I immediately regret and will address it and say sorry to God later on. Then sometimes I forget what the contradiction was and I have to read or watch the whole thing all over again. Because I heard one preacher say if you pray for someone’s physical healing be specific about the part of that person that needs healing, consequently when I have these contradictive thoughts instead of asking God to forgive me for all contradictive thoughts I have had during watching or listening to a certain article I have to specify exactly the point
    where the contradiction happened. This is so time consuming
    It’s driving me insane, It’s got to the stage where there are so many articles building up on me.
    Have you got any answers Jaime.. Would really appreciate it

    • I think your need to remember your contradictive thoughts is your ocd talking. Your need to remember them “just right” in order to ask for forgiveness is your ocd talking. God doesn’t put that requirement on us. Like jamie says in this article the thought itself might not have even been something you need to ask for forgiveness for in the first place if it was unwanted and intrusive. I would do your best NOT to rewatch or reread things. That might be a compulsion. I did the same. I would save things and read them again and again and again but I did it for reassurance seeking. I wanted reassurance about my faith and saved tons of articles and websites to read over anytime I had an intrusive doubt. I came to realize this was ocd and came to realize it was affecting my relationship with God and the I needed to ignore and not engage with the doubts. Rereading the religious materials over and over was not bringing me any closer to God. Rereading your materials is not bringing you any closer to forgiveness. Journaling helped me when I felt the urge to go back and reread. Maybe try journaling your feelings about the contractions and about forgiveness and ocd instead of going back to read again or to pray for forgiveness.

  • Jamie! What a wonderful article this is. A few things I would like to add that would be a wonderful encouragement to those suffering from scrupulocity and this particular train of thought would be the believer’s security in Christ. I have struggled with scrupulocity for decades. It all began at 19. I’m 49 and the overarching forward momentum or trend has been positive.

    It really turned positive when I began to accept the fact that my identity as His child is unshakable. The very moment when I received Jesus, He forgave me of ALL of my sins – past, present and future – gave me a new heart, a new spirit and His Spirit. These are all irrevocable. We often neglect to realize that in God’s economy, forgiveness requires a blood sacrifice. Modern day culture between two humans considers an apology with tears, etc as the currency for human to human forgiveness.

    Not with God. His Son was the ultimate sacrifice – the perfect transaction that would literally take away sin. We receive this complete forgiveness when we received Him.

    Some may counter this with the idea that this wonderful Grace will just make people want to sin more, but it actually has the opposite effect. God’s got this, He knew what He was doing! We may still struggle with sin and old flesh-driven thought patterns that don’t align with who we really are.

    Our spirit cries out that we hate these thoughts that are contrary to our new nature. This shows up in scrupulocity.

    We often fail to realize this, and also fail to recognize that Jesus came to also remove the guilt. The Jews no longer felt guilty for their sins of the prior year after the day of Atonement. That was for a whole year. Then the sins started piling up in their conscience for the following year. In Jesus, we get to enjoy a guilt free conscience forever. We’re just in the process of spiritual growth, which takes time to realize this, so we often fall prey to scrupulous thinking.

    This may be a shock to many, but we as believers actually do have a good heart. We can actually call ourselves good, even if we mess up (and that obviouslyhappens). Righteousness is by birth, not behavior (or thoughts!). His Spirit doesn’t recreate a person into a sinful, wicked child of God. That wouldn’t make sense.

    A friend and pastor of mine often told me to take that obsessive thinking and focus it on the love God has for me. Be obsessed by the love of God, of Jesus.

    The more I explore how limitless His love is for me, how He is faithful to me, He treats me as if I’ve never sinned a day in my life even though I do everyday, and hate it. He is the one who initiated all of this because He simply wanted to be with me, share His Life with me, to know me and to be known by Him. To be His son.

    This begins to remove the anxiety, fear, confusion, obsession and worry of the intrusive thoughts I held onto for the past 30 years. That is the forward, positive momentum I’m seeing in my life with scrupulocity and I see it fading away.

    He is so very good!

  • Thank you so much Jaimie,
    It’s been a long lonely road.
    I often pray for others who suffer from this problem even though I haven’t met them.
    Frank

      • Hi Kathy,
        As I wrote I pray almost every day for people who suffer with this. Sometimes I think a big part of heaven will not having to deal with this problem.
        When I’m thinking of this, I picture myself kneeling at the feet of Jesus in heaven and then I think why not now by faith. My word for the year has been courage. So I can by God’s grace do the unintuitive thing and not go along with this problem and leave it to God to fix.Some days are better that others. One of my go to verses is. Lamentations 3:26 It is good that a man should both hope and quietly wait for the salvation of Jehovah.

  • God be with you Jaimie. Thank you for this timely read. My priest says that God will provide you with the people to help you heal for that day and you are one such person.

  • God Bless you! This is a comfort. I feel sometimes that I am the only one experiencing them, and while I am not happy that others deal with this, I am happy too not be the only one in a way.

  • I needed this today! I really struggle when I have the blasphemous thoughts when I AM being sinful because that seems like I’m intentionally denying the Holy Spirit which is the unpardonable sin. For example last night my husband and I were enjoying sitting outside, I’m a teacher on summer break and we have a 5 month old. He got a beer and asked if I wanted some wine- I said yes even though I’d told God the day before that I would do better about having drinks during the week. I had more wine than I should- I felt fully fine and not inebriated but had like 3/4 glasses and said in my head that I curse God, the Holy Spirit to Hell to have more than 2 glasses of wine. I’ve been stressed this morning and feel like a failure and still struggling because I feel like I deliberately ignored the Holy Spirit and then blasphemed which seems like real sin and not ocd

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